Random Thoughts

This posts aren't really for anyone to read. If anyone reads, well it doesn't matter.

So the thought is what is the thing that I really crave for? I believe every man has something which would engross him to the extent that the rest of the world becomes immaterial. Take any case in history, literature and you would agree with me. But the sad part is most of the men are either ignorant about this or spend their entire lifetime searching for it. Maybe I fall into the second category, and that is my worst fear. Those who really find, either are terrific success or terrible failure. I would prefer to be either of that, than being a mediocre. Mediocrity is a disaster, a waste of life.

I was initially interested in software development. I guess opium/cocaine would have the same effect on me as software development. It's just wonderful to feel that, as the complexity increases, so does the effect, where the whole body and mind blend into one, and the only sole thing that would exist is the solution to the problem on hand and nothing else. But then life doesn't seem to take proper turns, as intended, after every run there is a phase when everything is at standstill. It's so obscene in effect.
That's the phase which I hate most than anything else living or dead. Sometimes I feel that I took a wrong decision in selecting the technology, Peoplesoft. I always have a break/vacation, which I desperately don't want.

[to be contd. got work to finish...]